Laughter

I cry in my heart as if I am mourning a loved one.

I mourn myself.

The parts of me I let die because of disappointments.

The parts of me that I knew were supposed to make it but didn’t.

The parts of me that were chipped away by bitterness and pain.

I miss you.

Everyday, I wish you had stayed with me.

You gave me a bit of hope, I thought we would come this far and maybe even further together.

I miss you, your innocence, your light, your laughter.

Our laughter.

But you are gone now and I have to take responsibility in all this. I have to own up to my actions and look myself in the mirror. I did this. I chased you away.

I was the one who held you down while you drowned in all my excuses.

I watched you wither away under my hate and uncaring nature.

I hated how much love you had in your heart for everything, so I went out of my way to bring in thorns and tear up everything.

He was right after-all I am a destroyer.

But I miss you...

Perhaps someone can you bring back to me

I promise to do better...