So I stayed..
I have always struggled with the feeling of being Wanted ... It didn't really do they want me around but more of why would anyone want me around? You grow up and little by little words stick on you and you begin to internalize them so much “Too stubborn.” “Mischiev…
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Well wishes
I wish you well from the bottom of my heart because I know I know what’s like to wake up with hurt and pain I know what’s like to look around you not find love I know what it’s like to be suffering in silence and not able to scream for help Or you do scream and no one listen…
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Over Shadows
Sometimes we become conflicted in our vulnerability. Maybe we don’t get the response we expected or we feel that it was too much too soon. Putting yourself out there will always take some balls and the fact that you are able to do it should speak more about your personal stren…
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To A Girl Like Me #1
To A Girl like me: You woke up today not feeling like it was a good day to do 'life' but you have to. You have to get up and clean your body and go out of this space where you feel most comfortable and show up to work. Smile and pack and sweep the floors. When anyone …
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Dear Mom, I Want To Kill Myself.
In my early twenties, I was diagnosed with Manic Depression, now commonly known as Bipolar Disorder. I had suicidal thoughts every day for nearly a decade, starting from my late teens. I wanted to die. Every night I would fall asleep to a tear-soaked pillow, begging a cru…
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I'm fine, Thank you.
Sometimes I’m really crying for help, but when I hear - Hello, how are you? My mouth says: I’m fine thank you. Sometimes I just want a hug but my hands push people even further away from me as if saying get away from me. Sometimes I want to call 911 but I end up on Facebook…
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Turn around
This is to a specific 'friend' who went behind my back and told people horrible things about me to make herself feel better about the problems she has in her life. I wish you well always. I wish you happiness and joy. I wish you success in all you do. I have nothi…
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Blue Flame
(Play: Stromae - Formidable (ceci n'est pas une leçon) He put his hand on mine and instantly i t reminded me of all the hands that touched me uninvited, unwanted and yet again this. Moments of intimacy stolen from my lips, stolen from my body. Cold desires that scarred…
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Reflection: What is your self worth?
Growth is important but it only comes through constantly admitting that we are wrong and don’t know it all. Take those hard truths and work on them. We are all equal, no one is perfect or better than the other. Constantly working on your flaws is what makes you a better p…
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From one vacuum to another...
People who go around telling lies about you to make themselves look/feel better have low self esteem. This is a fact. These people will do anything to make you look bad just so they can feel like they have the upper hand or are better than you, they will talk behind your b…
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